An explination: Of the way I live.

I live in the moment every single day of my life,
I tend to not care about the past, I just cherish the beautiful moments.
Whatever happens is because my actions made it happen.
Trust me I won't blame it on anyone else.
For the future I don't worry about it, I just do what I'm suppose to do.
I hate stressing or feeling pressured. Who the hell doesn't?
Freaks if they do.
I laugh 99.9% of the time and some people say it's not normal.
why not? When I feel that .1% of sadness I find a way to move on.
I make people angry when I laugh about things I'm suppose to cry about,
people just don't know I do that on my own time. Go live your life!
God knows Ive gone through so much SHIT in my life, but I love when people think
it's fine and perfect the way it is.
My mom says I'll never grow out of being a kid at heart, but I get in trouble for
acting like an adult and I have everything under control.
I argue if I believe in it. I can pretend to care but I rather tell people the truth.
I don't lie when I tell people I'm the nicest person you can meet.
I just love to have fun, I only take things seriously when I know I have to.
I procrastinate a lot! I hate exaggeration but I do it at times.
My life is lived the way I want it to be and I do get butt hurt when people butt in!
Let me laugh and worry about things in my own way.

A Holiday Away from Home

It's hard enough to spend any day with out my family.
It's special days like a birthday or Thanksgiving,
That makes me realize how much I truly miss them.
My heart feels this empty space
And all I can think of is, I wish I was there.

I get to miss out on our family traditions,
Getting up early and helping my mom cook and clean.
I can't hear those special voices running around saying,
"Happy Thanksgiving! We're going to eat Turkey!"
Putting tables together and surrounding them with chairs.

Waiting so anxiously for everyone to show up.
Getting the first sample of the Rice crispy treats.
I wonder who is the lucky one is this year?
I can imagine hearing the knock on the door.
Imagining feeling the greetings and love.

I don't get to feel their warm hands,
As we give thanks and pray.
This year I don't get a memory just a phone call.
Which is good enough, because I give thanks
Since we still have each other no matter the distance.

Who to choose?

How do you decide who to vote for? Morals.? i have one day to decide. less than 24 hours. do i vote for the one that is most like our current president? even though i want to impressed. im not putting him down or anything, he did what he could. i guess. or do i vote for the difference "change" is what he calls it. for abortion or against abortion. higher school payments, or less expensive. the one for the people or the one for own glory. the one who looks like he has had experience or the new bee (younger one). we need someone to count on, not a back stabber a man of word. since these past eight years have been nothing but lies and pain. one of them catches my eye the most, like people say it doesnt hurt to try something new..someone not white, yea most people are voting for the guy who is black for being black..but im trusting his word, and hoping not to get betrayed and dissapointed. please dont do such thing. Yet the other one catches my attention because it seems like he is steady and is just going to continue picking up the pieces of the other mistake or make more but nothing is going to change, everything will be like everyday the freakin same no peace no comfort no nothing but worries. so who?